Okay, so this story probably has embarassing implications for me, but I HAVE to tell it here or I will explode with bizarre emotions...

So last night I was doing some Internet research regarding gay pornography. (...) I happened to be at a site where there were random, candid pictures of guys. I'm just flipping through, minding my own business, when suddenly I get to a picture and my heart stops beating and my jaw drops to the floor.

I found a porn picture of somebody I know.

And not just somebody that I know, somebody that I used to have a HUGE, obsessive crush on. I was never a stalker, but the closest I ever came was when I had an enormous crush on this guy in college. And he happens to be my ex-boyfriend's ex-boyfriend. You can read all about it here if you want.

And suddenly there he is, on my computer, butt-ass naked in all his glory. But, randomly, he's getting oral attention... from two women. And he is gay as the driven snow, trust me, but he is also a party-boy type so it doesn't surprise me for a minute that he would 1. Let two girls "service" him, and, 2. Let somebody take a PICTURE of this and post it on the freakin' INTERNET!

Now, you would think that I would be really excited by this, right? My HUGE crush from college, now displayed naked on my computer screen for my own private viewing pleasure?

Actually, no. I'm just so confused and overwhelmed by the whole thing. I keep staring at the picture like it's a curiousity, some bizarre blip in my life that could not possibly be real. I mean, what are the chances of the ONE PERSON in college that I had a crush on who I didn't sleep with showing up naked on my computer?

Well, I'll have to deal with this issue somehow. All I can say is that I'm slightly horrified, my curiousity is piqued, and my mind cannot process this data.

And if you leave me a really nice note or e-mail I might just send you the picture... (Because you KNOW I saved it to my harddrive!)